Broken wing

Angel with a broken wing

It's suffocating
Strings are getting tight
My head is going to explode
I am alive but
My nerves feel collapsing
I can feel things crawling on my skin
Unable to stand
I can't call out for help
I can't share my suffering
I am in a mess
Distancing myself
I love you
I do
But
my soul
It's trapped
I am confused
I am in a denial
I don't want anyone around
Yet I am afraid of my loneliness
I won't accept help
But I need help
I shut slammed the door on your face
But hey
please stay on the other side of the door
Let me cry out
Let me scream
Let me take that toxicity out
Let me blame you
-Why?
I am not sure
But even though on my lowest
In the darkness I got lost
You are the only twinkling star
To light my pathway
Listen
Stay
Help
Make me stand up
When I will be tired crying
I will look into the mirror
With swollen eyes
And question my existence
On the verge of breaking
I may clench my jaw
And hang my self
Only then
Your acceptance of my existence
Will give me life
And bloom the hope
To live a life
And learn to stand
Taking steps to laugh again
Storm in my life will once be stopped
Sun will shine with rainbow appearing
And I will fall in love all over again.

Note to people close to sufferers:

Anxiety/Depression is real. For some it may take months and for some years to be cured. And love is the only effective medicine besides therapy. It is not always the stress that triggers anxiety, there are experiences one may have forgotten becoming nightmares, there are self enforcement one may face and many more. It's not controllable but curable. Listen, accept and be emphatic because they are already suffering and they do not need more sufferings. They already have things going on in mind you may never know and they might never share. It is not their fault, they are just being tested. Consult a trusted psychiatrist. They probably won't call for help, be their trust and HELP.